21 January, 2022 - 08:23 PM
Seems like other people's perceptions/expectations are having a large effect on your life and how you see yourself. This is an easy but insidious trap to fall into. You CANNOT let anything other than your own truest desires dictate your life and happiness. For this, however, you need to truly know yourself -- a lifelong project indeed. I suggest you spend some time meditating and taking a break from the constant assault of societal influence and demand. Sit, be still, and look into your mind and heart to true depths of who you are and you will enjoy much more clarity and peace.