Im sad about who i've become

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I used to believe that i was a intellectually superior mental and emotional predator primed to dominate and subvert all of societies systems and hierarchy's 

But it turns im out just a crazy person i believe = i thought of myself as a lion and the people of the world were sheep - but they are winning me over and forcing me to look at myself and see myself as i am and not as the way i would want them to see me. 

Sometimes it's hard for me to tell if people are bullying me into having a lower opinion of myself or if im generally just becoming aware of what i already am....or does none of this matter and it only matters what labels and perspectives i choose to cast on myself - is it optional? am i being irresponsible by allowing myself to divert to such menial points of view of myself...sometime's it's hard to tell who's right - what's right, i know i haven't slept hardly at all last night - probably explains why im in such a piss poor mood - i try never to allow myself to judge anything im doing - when the following criteria are not met 

Needs:
Social
Food
Water
Sleep

- If all 4 of those are met im genuinely pretty solid - the more of my needs are met the more intelligent and forthright i am about my goals in life - everything's better tbh 

I wish i was surrounded by people who were masters at meeting all of their needs - so it would become the new normal instead of something virtually impossible that nobody i know is really capable of doing...

I just want to believe and think that im capable of more than what i've done - i get so judgementally aspirational when im in this bad mood - feeling like - other people are super successful and im just like - not enough unaccomplished...it makes me pretty upset - 

I"ve been so upset recently i haven't been able to sleep - it sucks so much balls :[ not being able to sleep - my ptsd gets worse and things that normally wouldn't scare or upset me - start to 

I really need some sleep :[

*ALERT* I HAVE IMPOSTERS, CONFIRM ALL DEALS ON C.IO DM'S *ALERT*

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thats pretty much life is. read the bible lol, i think it'll motivate you

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sad story 

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good luck man

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I wish i was surrounded by people who were masters at meeting all of their needs - so it would become the new normal instead of something virtually impossible that nobody i know is really capable of doing...

felt that bro, it seems like no one knows what they want/need anymore.... gl bro 

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Well, are you a sheep or not, how others see you means nothing, many people see just what they want to and what you let them to see.

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Well, are you a sheep or not, how others see you means nothing, many people see just what they want to and what you let them to see.

Great advice Saul!

I believe you are over-thinking the situation OP, There are nasty people everywhere who are broke and sad and who work every day to make a living, the other 3% of the world own everything and are the rich elite.
When there is a will there is a way, the law of attraction works best for those who are humble and hungry for more.

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very sad