OP 30 September, 2020 - 01:21 PM
(This post was last modified: 30 September, 2020 - 01:25 PM by thedreamlord.)
what is the true meaning of life, my friends?
i do not see a clear point of presence
everything is pointless
nobody gives a fuck
im already a failure
only what matters is death and dishonor
too much bullshit from media!!
gracias
UPDATE: i have currently got a pistol in my hands that i borrowed from a close friend (glock) i am ready to reconsider
9-11 months ago I was going through the hardest time of my life. Which also led me to where i needed to go.
I lost my uncle Ricky tragically. I lost my great aunt Edna Mae tragically. My granddad had a huge fall which resulted in almost losing him. After breaking two of his ribs, all he could do was sit. While sitting, his kidneys started failing him and he developed pneumonia. He ended up spending some time in sicu and lifecare, but now is at home. I left someone i had been with for years and moved back home. I left with almost nothing of my own except clothes. However, My life is more important than clothes. I lost my memaw tragically too.
However, the day my memaw died, i met the love of my life. Who two months later i would allow myself to fall in love with. And maybe it was fast. 8 months of knowing and 6 months of dating. But, now engaged and in the best part of my life. I dated my ex for two years and he gave me a ring but the only reason he did that was so no one else could have me. He said he would never marry me.
What I’m saying is, i bounced back so hard from my hardest day. That’s why i don’t write as much anymore. I still have my bad days but, my good days seem much more constant. This is a very raw posts. I hope it finds someone good use. Your good days are coming, you have to learn to love yourself and be kind to yourself in the bad. Leave the bad if possible, and allow yourself to love someone good. If you haven’t seen my old writing, check it out. ❤️
I love y’all. Thank you for always being here for me.
CERTIFIED internet hacker 
i do not see a clear point of presence
everything is pointless
nobody gives a fuck
im already a failure
only what matters is death and dishonor
too much bullshit from media!!
gracias
UPDATE: i have currently got a pistol in my hands that i borrowed from a close friend (glock) i am ready to reconsider
9-11 months ago I was going through the hardest time of my life. Which also led me to where i needed to go.
I lost my uncle Ricky tragically. I lost my great aunt Edna Mae tragically. My granddad had a huge fall which resulted in almost losing him. After breaking two of his ribs, all he could do was sit. While sitting, his kidneys started failing him and he developed pneumonia. He ended up spending some time in sicu and lifecare, but now is at home. I left someone i had been with for years and moved back home. I left with almost nothing of my own except clothes. However, My life is more important than clothes. I lost my memaw tragically too.
However, the day my memaw died, i met the love of my life. Who two months later i would allow myself to fall in love with. And maybe it was fast. 8 months of knowing and 6 months of dating. But, now engaged and in the best part of my life. I dated my ex for two years and he gave me a ring but the only reason he did that was so no one else could have me. He said he would never marry me.
What I’m saying is, i bounced back so hard from my hardest day. That’s why i don’t write as much anymore. I still have my bad days but, my good days seem much more constant. This is a very raw posts. I hope it finds someone good use. Your good days are coming, you have to learn to love yourself and be kind to yourself in the bad. Leave the bad if possible, and allow yourself to love someone good. If you haven’t seen my old writing, check it out. ❤️
I love y’all. Thank you for always being here for me.
CERTIFIED internet hacker
