idk anymore lol

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ima be honest you could say this is for attention, but this is more just out of curiosity i was and still am considering to yk end it. im not asking for a message of "nooooo you'll be missed your family and friends will miss you" its more just im bored of life. saying "go get a hobby" "find a sport" "go find something your passionate about" i've done all of that and life is really easy for me and always has been feels like a handout as i really never had any challenges so im just really bored now. theres really nothing much to life for me left. I've been alone for over 2 years now with just me and my thoughts so you could see how i got here today writing this i usually seem happy when im at school or out but at this point im just really tired, im not trying to be a pussy or anything lol, once again im just bored. everything i do is always hated on or just pushed to the side by others but when i succeed everyone is there for me now, i've never felt like ive actually had the true meaning of friends or even real family members expect maybe 1 that is just gone now. Any big news I get from anyone i never felt anything about it sure ill smile but in the end its just worthless to me. Even if I had people that consider me their "friends" i was never contacted by any of them and this has been going on for 2 years now, and sure ill get 1 or 2 two messages of them just saying "hello" then "goodbye". but waking up everyday to nothing and nobody just doing a routine over and over is hard especially when you try to fix that routine and you cant. "Go talk to a family member" ive tried, my brother really never understands me he usually just shits on me for everything I do, and for my mom she just says "good job" nothing else but when I show the same affection they show me they get mad. So this is just a loop of nothing for me. I have a lack of empathy I'd say which brings me to all of this. whenever im needed or anything that's the only notification i'll be getting in my phone pretty tuff huh lol. hey though nice forum though

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if you say "omg i cant because my family" then its just a excuse for yourself lmao

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fair point lol, but nah

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but yes.. If you would really wanna die then you would care about nothing i have depressions myself and shit since i'm 11 years old wtf do you mean lmao

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you mentioned school. If you still havent finished school and grown up yet, I'd say you're missing out on a shit ton.

Challenges will come, the older you get. When you move out alone, you'll have the challenge of paying bills. When you get married, you'll have the challenge that is the marriage. When you have kids, you'll have the challenge to raise them adequately. If you don't have a support network, (AKA Friends, Co-workers, Spouse, and MOST importantly Family) then I would say to make it a goal of yours to be the support network for others in need or in your care. For example, if you have shitty parents, then make it a goal to be different when you have kids of your own.

If you feel everything is a hand-out, then stop accepting the hand-out. Do everything yourself, don't accept money or help from anyone.

The key to staying motivated in life is to have goals. When you meet those goals, make new ones. Boredom leads to nothing in life.

If you feel like you've come to an end, and no longer need anything from life, then turn to others in need. There are other people out there that need. You can fill in the space or gap in their life that they need, and you yourself will/can find enjoyment and fulfillment out of helping others -- It is also important to have a social life as we humans are social animals. If you are un-able to make friends in real life, make friends in videogames, or on the internet; There are millions of people like you, who think the same way like you, and that need the same things you need.

It's a matter of perspective.

Unless you are 80 years old on your death-bed, I'd say there's alot to life you haven't explored yet or even know exists. I'd give yourself a chance at exploring the more meaningful aspects to life like love relationships and having a family of your own where YOU get to dictate the rules, and further watch your kids grow and live through THEIR accomplishments, and not your own.

My wife is a suicide attempt survivor and I'm constantly at her side trying to get her to view the world through my eyes now. If you need someone to talk to, you can PM me your discord

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i feel you on that, but you prob should delete this cause of the age limit i think on this forum or something