Sometimes i feel like im such a failure

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Sometimes it just feels like - i should've been better - made different choices - 

When i was trying to make businesses and i give up - when i had the choose of waking up/going to sleep right - eating properly - drinking water - if i just did those 3 things right - my life would be completely different for the better...but i can't change the fact that I've done all that i've done...


I just wish y'know - that i had been strong enough to overcome some of my challenges - like - making money from nothing - being compassionate when i had not one shred of emotional strength to withstand the tide of agonizing self hatred i struggle with inside of me - i regret that sometimes the most out of all things - it would've been so free-ing - to be able to just be compassionate - but my feelings of vengeance and resentment always come up first - 

I know im only human but - it seems like i should aspire to be more - and i live with so much regret - that i wasn't able to live up to my aspirations in so many ways - 

I always wanted to be the guy that could - make the right decisions - like financially, pay my debt off, build my credit, invest save - relationships be able to fulfill someone's needs completely - to become cherished and adored by a woman for my contributions to her existence - needed - wanting to give me everything she has so we can be together always - building up small businesses - like refunding or graphic design - all these things - ALL OF THESE THINGS THAT IM CAPABLE OF DOING - but that i haven't done 

They stay with me - and i resent myself about it over and over and over again - every time i see it - they become just a constant reminder that i made bad choices 

Such a reminder - that, when i finally start to succeed - it's almost like my accomplishments are meaningless because i never accomplished what matters - struggling and overcoming that struggle the way other great men i admire have done - idk why i wanna be like them and do what they've done - im sure to some degree i've just imagined it - but i look up to a lot of the guys on c.to and in real life and when i imagine what there lives are like and i can't measure up to them it makes me feel worthless and meaningless :[

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Bruh i feel absolutely same, bruh we're the same persone, i thought i have some mental problems, but look, i don't have much to say except "Shine my brother, we'll meet on top :)"

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Here if you ever need to talk, taboo :)

joe biden can gargle it

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I had the same problem but beating urself up about past failures does nothing, leave them in past and use mistakes to help you learn. Also instead of comparing yourself to your idols and stressing yourself out that they are "ahead" of you, use them for motivation, look at there victories and how they achieved them and match those

goodluck to you