My online dad

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Just to throw my best guess around, many of your health problems sound like they are related to your psychological state, you would not believe how your mental state can affect your physical one.
So about that all you can do is try to accept yourself and who you are, make a list with what you are good at and if you have any passions and invest in that. Also, I can't recommend enough going to the gym, any gym, just start going and that alone might have a huge positive impact in your life, especially if you dont engage in other sports.

When it comes to the relationship you had with that dude, you did not do anything to him or have any implication in him tacking his life, that was his decision.
I am sure that all he was looking to is trying to influence someone else towards good before ending it all, that is why he was sending you money and giving you advice to start going to church.

He was probably a good person, but he was lost, you could not have done anything to prevent it.

So yeah man, just try to focus and work towards something greater, if you dont already do this!

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I Wouldn't say you're evil, i feel like your more of an opportunist who would do anything to get what you want, but keep your head up & don't let it get you down

Life goes on...

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I can't say that your evil but certainly that ur really weak about anything Mental state or even self-improvement, Ur just an opportunist you had a chance to accept help and you accepted nothing wrong with that if you didn't baited him to do that  

1 Main thing like @SaulGoodmanRef A lot of health issues are coming from yo mental state, really try to learn how your brain/body/reaction work and try to manipulate urself(yeah it's weird)
Instead of cryin, just don't suffocate by thinking too hard, have respect and honor and move on, if he was a good person he would probably want u to succeed in yo life instead of thinking too hard about this situation

Don't live yo life without understanding yo body/brain you will be betrayed by it 
Quote from Aristotle - “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”
Don't live yo life like a tourist be the owner your actions and reactions

Overall you never know who's behind the screen he may be a "good person" but you don't know his motives, a lot of people like that are high lvl manipulators
Be careful learn how to live properly, fix urself some big goals and projects !

Maybe you like to live in depression and bad mental state, i'm not joking a lot of people find pleasure in not trying, people don't like to change, it's up to u
This is a small amount of advices i can give but good luck 

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Happy you tracked down some assistance throughout everyday life , and you didn't get anything to fault yourself for brother , simply make him glad any place he is that is the British Essay Writing and check assuming he has family perhaps sometime you will be rich and help them , utilize that as inspiration to improve at everything .