I dont want to live anymore. I need advice

[112]

It takes a lot of courage for you to be able to reach out to this community to be able to share these strong feelings my friend. I'm glad to hear that you are safe. These are definitely not some easy feelings that you are carrying.. 

What are some of the things that keep you busy and make you feel fulfilled? Having some hobbies/interests are something that may be worth working on can be a good strengthening point to be able to work past this. I can believe that living with an abuser is extremely exhausting, frustrating for wanting to get out, and hopeless... I'm curious to know what sort of places around your area would be able to help you take refuge and be able to find ways to start a new path?

Feel free to message me and chat a little more in depth about it if you please!

[33]

A good thing to do would be to see a psychiatrist. These troubles can last for a long time unfortunately, as others.. If it didn't work try to see a new one and don't stay quiet ! Congrats for having the courage to express your feelings.
Hope you'll get better =)

[65]

Hide all the knives in your house and do DMT or another psychedelic.

Has seriously helped me...

[48]

hey bro idk if ur still looking for advice.

although rather vague, I relate to ur story. I had to live w my abuser for a very long time and haven't been away from them for a long time in the grand scheme of things. they... really fucked me up. ive been in and out of psych wards a few times and on a few different meds as well, which have also fucked me up. hard part, life goes on and now I gotta figure it out. and its hard. and it sucks a lot most of the time. but the good moments are really good and I definitely feel like I don't wanna miss out on those.

so my advice would be to talk to somebody and get the support u need bc that's what has been most helpful for me. although Ive had a lot of failures in getting help when it works it really helps and i feel like i can manage life and stuff.

here to talk if u need it

peace.