OP 09 June, 2021 - 10:37 AM
[THIS THREAD IS FOR VENTING MY ARROGANCE AND BRAGGING]
So, for the record, i was being physically abused with thorn whips from bushes and...ignored for hours to days on end regardless of crying or begging...the only time should would give me attention is if i did something important or unexpected. My family, broke the door to my room and never fixed it, they also managed to represent with their body language such intimidatingly aggressive and untrustworthy values characteristics feelings and thoughts, that i lived in constant fear of them every single second of my life from the age of 6 when i was "rescued" from my mother and sent to live with my other family. Over that time, i lived in what can only be described as an emotional nightmare, alone, suffering every second of the day, my only relief the 5 seconds after i woke up, before my mind honed in on my immediate threats and my nervous system began emotionally reacting. I didn't know my family was emotionally abusive until i left home and people helped me become self aware of my lack of feeling safe and fear of EVERYONE i meet being a threat who will hurt me...they quickly identified my family as the cause of these experiences..and that just about broke me, to find out that my family are monstrous cruel people who made me suffer without relent for the first 25 years of my existence. I have PTSD from these events that causes me to struggle all the time but I'm steadily overcoming it.
So, anyways, my mom....she made me develop a severe hypersensitivity to body language, that has been the bane of my existence for most of my life. Due to my innate ability to read people, i constantly bare witness to unintentional displays of thoughts and emotions which most would find offensive and hurtful, I've even began to suspect that I see emotional responses from the sub conscious and can communicate beyond the 10% consciousness people possess with the other 90% via body language...which i find to be a far more trustworthy way to get to know a person.
And due to my mother withholding the safety of her attention from me unless i did something impressive, unexpected, i constantly seek the feeling of safety by learning and doing increasingly complex things with zero regard for the difficulty of the task, which has lead me to do some pretty incredible things. - to me, all the positive feelings people have about something they want to understand or think is impossible, will come to me, if i can embody the concept or task, by conquering it...
This, need for the feeling of safety has caused me to bypass many psychological barriers that with have otherwise stopped me from learning or understanding various topics. And i haven't found a limit to that potential yet which is increasingly fascinating.
The things I'm mostly proud of are as follows. I spent 3 years on the website 7cups you can examine some of the psychological progression i made with various theoretical concepts in my biography straightforwardFan8296 Member Profile - 7 Cups . The biography outlines a lot of philosophical concepts i struggled with too....i had thousands of conversations with people on here exploring those two fields to the fullest using person after person to filter and challenge my thoughts in an effort to chisel them into perfection. Examining every single aspect of every single step to its core for inadequacies and irrationality.
Living in an entrepreneurial country i feel like the way to feel safe is by embodying a business like mindset, so immediately after becoming homeless when i left home. I became the assistant to the lady who owned my shelter, earned her trust by solving various technical and logistical issues as well as grievances with other clients and expanding her understanding of various topics from my own. Having gained her trust, it empowered me to be more independent and in control of my choices, which i used to befriend and cozy up to a family friend and CEO of a cab company looking to expand into the city i was homeless in. She agreed to give me a large % of each cab ride's fairs in exchange for administrative and logistical oversight. I divided up my share of the cab fares between myself and the shelter owner then requested she join me in the venture as the financial lead in the branch of the company, which she accepted. It was a weird turn of events...she was my inferior...her son, this arrogant prick everyone loathed the existence of was suddenly working for me...all i would have to do to put him in line is mention the ceo haha. Fun times. After a while, i started working on the branding of the company for the town, identifying areas of partnership and advertisement opportunities for local businesses to invest in with the cabs and potential clients to do the work...all of which went pretty smoothly, finally i talked with both the CEO and Shelter owner, to merge their businesses in an attempt to improve the cabs brand recognition to the town and align their newfound presence with positive qualities like generosity and kindness, all of which the CEO of the cab company found flattering and in return, she would donate rides to the homeless people living with me to promote the good deeds of her generosity to the town. (i enjoyed that branding idea). Next thing i know, im working out the logistics of a contract negotiation and studying how to do contract negotiations from
wiki how and youtube. lol. fun.
Shortly after this, i took a job with Tyson foods and again my need for safety compelled me to take actions to great lengths, i identified an issue with a language barrier, some 130 different languages spoken at each locations, drastically dividing the company culture and severely impacting productivity and efficiency. So, i was planning on inventing a voice translator but after doing some market research i found a company not only making translators but also pairing them with artificial intelligence servers to increase their potential. I pitched the company on merging with Tyson foods and got a free translator which I used to pitch my HR office, the Head of the plant and various other leaders into considering the idea...which they were hesitant at first, so i got frustrated and messaged/called every single head of every single corporate branch in the entire company until my HR office started getting responses about it...next thing i know they're taking the idea and it's becoming something, haha.
( I have a philosophy that, if something can effectively execute a concept without my direct involvement i prefer it, because I'd much rather be doing things people can't do, than what people can do) - so im very happy they took on the idea and worked on it...saves me time and effort.
Even when i get bored i start having these. emotional revelation's working out the physics of holograms, hover-technology, energy generation with slip based physics. It's nice not perceiving impossible, it enables me to tackle hard problems and i look forward to seeing how far that takes me...owe it all to my abusive mother...suffering breeds strength
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Having made so many breakthroughs with psychology and neuroscience on my own time and absorbed countless amounts of ego boosting praise from people i developed a feeling that my family and most people are upsettingly low level thinkers. I suspected that it would take me no less than a year, to figure out how to live on my own, make more money than the top earner of my family and do things that they could only dream of.
So, cut to 1 year later, i know how to make money via refunding that exceeds 100k a year. I moved to Hawaii and live in a rich ass neighborhood with cool people, doing cool shit. All my needs are being met and I'm steadily recovering from my PTSD and gaining control over my life/growing up.
I'm glad i got to suffer for the first 20 years of my life, sure yeah, i never got to have a child hood or be a teenager, but everyone has to suffer in their life and it looks like i just got all of mine out of the way. Now i have, if im lucky, very lucky...a long life of productivity and fulfillment to create...and i thank god for the opportunities he's given me to overcome my mental illness and create a new life. I hope that, the inventions i create, the influence i exert into the world somehow makes up for the damage I've done to so many people throughout my journey this far in life. Maybe i'll be able to make up for the pain i've been causing to others so long, here's to hope-ing
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So, for the record, i was being physically abused with thorn whips from bushes and...ignored for hours to days on end regardless of crying or begging...the only time should would give me attention is if i did something important or unexpected. My family, broke the door to my room and never fixed it, they also managed to represent with their body language such intimidatingly aggressive and untrustworthy values characteristics feelings and thoughts, that i lived in constant fear of them every single second of my life from the age of 6 when i was "rescued" from my mother and sent to live with my other family. Over that time, i lived in what can only be described as an emotional nightmare, alone, suffering every second of the day, my only relief the 5 seconds after i woke up, before my mind honed in on my immediate threats and my nervous system began emotionally reacting. I didn't know my family was emotionally abusive until i left home and people helped me become self aware of my lack of feeling safe and fear of EVERYONE i meet being a threat who will hurt me...they quickly identified my family as the cause of these experiences..and that just about broke me, to find out that my family are monstrous cruel people who made me suffer without relent for the first 25 years of my existence. I have PTSD from these events that causes me to struggle all the time but I'm steadily overcoming it.
So, anyways, my mom....she made me develop a severe hypersensitivity to body language, that has been the bane of my existence for most of my life. Due to my innate ability to read people, i constantly bare witness to unintentional displays of thoughts and emotions which most would find offensive and hurtful, I've even began to suspect that I see emotional responses from the sub conscious and can communicate beyond the 10% consciousness people possess with the other 90% via body language...which i find to be a far more trustworthy way to get to know a person.
And due to my mother withholding the safety of her attention from me unless i did something impressive, unexpected, i constantly seek the feeling of safety by learning and doing increasingly complex things with zero regard for the difficulty of the task, which has lead me to do some pretty incredible things. - to me, all the positive feelings people have about something they want to understand or think is impossible, will come to me, if i can embody the concept or task, by conquering it...
This, need for the feeling of safety has caused me to bypass many psychological barriers that with have otherwise stopped me from learning or understanding various topics. And i haven't found a limit to that potential yet which is increasingly fascinating.
The things I'm mostly proud of are as follows. I spent 3 years on the website 7cups you can examine some of the psychological progression i made with various theoretical concepts in my biography straightforwardFan8296 Member Profile - 7 Cups . The biography outlines a lot of philosophical concepts i struggled with too....i had thousands of conversations with people on here exploring those two fields to the fullest using person after person to filter and challenge my thoughts in an effort to chisel them into perfection. Examining every single aspect of every single step to its core for inadequacies and irrationality.
Living in an entrepreneurial country i feel like the way to feel safe is by embodying a business like mindset, so immediately after becoming homeless when i left home. I became the assistant to the lady who owned my shelter, earned her trust by solving various technical and logistical issues as well as grievances with other clients and expanding her understanding of various topics from my own. Having gained her trust, it empowered me to be more independent and in control of my choices, which i used to befriend and cozy up to a family friend and CEO of a cab company looking to expand into the city i was homeless in. She agreed to give me a large % of each cab ride's fairs in exchange for administrative and logistical oversight. I divided up my share of the cab fares between myself and the shelter owner then requested she join me in the venture as the financial lead in the branch of the company, which she accepted. It was a weird turn of events...she was my inferior...her son, this arrogant prick everyone loathed the existence of was suddenly working for me...all i would have to do to put him in line is mention the ceo haha. Fun times. After a while, i started working on the branding of the company for the town, identifying areas of partnership and advertisement opportunities for local businesses to invest in with the cabs and potential clients to do the work...all of which went pretty smoothly, finally i talked with both the CEO and Shelter owner, to merge their businesses in an attempt to improve the cabs brand recognition to the town and align their newfound presence with positive qualities like generosity and kindness, all of which the CEO of the cab company found flattering and in return, she would donate rides to the homeless people living with me to promote the good deeds of her generosity to the town. (i enjoyed that branding idea). Next thing i know, im working out the logistics of a contract negotiation and studying how to do contract negotiations from
wiki how and youtube. lol. fun.
Shortly after this, i took a job with Tyson foods and again my need for safety compelled me to take actions to great lengths, i identified an issue with a language barrier, some 130 different languages spoken at each locations, drastically dividing the company culture and severely impacting productivity and efficiency. So, i was planning on inventing a voice translator but after doing some market research i found a company not only making translators but also pairing them with artificial intelligence servers to increase their potential. I pitched the company on merging with Tyson foods and got a free translator which I used to pitch my HR office, the Head of the plant and various other leaders into considering the idea...which they were hesitant at first, so i got frustrated and messaged/called every single head of every single corporate branch in the entire company until my HR office started getting responses about it...next thing i know they're taking the idea and it's becoming something, haha.
( I have a philosophy that, if something can effectively execute a concept without my direct involvement i prefer it, because I'd much rather be doing things people can't do, than what people can do) - so im very happy they took on the idea and worked on it...saves me time and effort.
Even when i get bored i start having these. emotional revelation's working out the physics of holograms, hover-technology, energy generation with slip based physics. It's nice not perceiving impossible, it enables me to tackle hard problems and i look forward to seeing how far that takes me...owe it all to my abusive mother...suffering breeds strength
.Having made so many breakthroughs with psychology and neuroscience on my own time and absorbed countless amounts of ego boosting praise from people i developed a feeling that my family and most people are upsettingly low level thinkers. I suspected that it would take me no less than a year, to figure out how to live on my own, make more money than the top earner of my family and do things that they could only dream of.
So, cut to 1 year later, i know how to make money via refunding that exceeds 100k a year. I moved to Hawaii and live in a rich ass neighborhood with cool people, doing cool shit. All my needs are being met and I'm steadily recovering from my PTSD and gaining control over my life/growing up.
I'm glad i got to suffer for the first 20 years of my life, sure yeah, i never got to have a child hood or be a teenager, but everyone has to suffer in their life and it looks like i just got all of mine out of the way. Now i have, if im lucky, very lucky...a long life of productivity and fulfillment to create...and i thank god for the opportunities he's given me to overcome my mental illness and create a new life. I hope that, the inventions i create, the influence i exert into the world somehow makes up for the damage I've done to so many people throughout my journey this far in life. Maybe i'll be able to make up for the pain i've been causing to others so long, here's to hope-ing
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